Tuesday, June 21, 2016 ' 6:59 PM
I am slowly getting myself immune to the pain & hurts.
I really can't convince myself to forget what he said to me. As a Husband, isn't this your responsibility to take up more burden and pressure for the family? When u told me "what is the point of working so hard when all my money are used up either on you or this family." All my friends' Husband are working really hard to provide for their Wife and their family. All my friends are working too. But how come their Husband never tell them "you are working as well and earning as much as me." I have not been asking you to pay for my personal expenses. How could you say such things! Yes though my pregnancy may seem to be much easier than many other woman, but that does not mean I am not making any sacrifices for you. 你可能不会那么心疼我。Husband should be loving their Wife more at this period of time, but u made me cried more than I feel loved. 你真的还爱我吗？不要应为要哄我而说爱。不用委屈自己。
You said I have became from bad to worse? All along I am always so 嘴硬心软， why don't you think whether was it due to your tolerant threshold has dropped? You no longer want to give in so much to me? Or was it your own stress at work that caused you to feel very 烦躁？What have changed you? 到底是什么东西让你改变那么多？💔💔😞😞 And you have excuses that cos I am worse off now that is why u longer Wan to coax me anymore, no longer want to tolerate me anymore? when it may be because you can't live up to the standard/ expectations that people have on you. Why Push it to me entirely? Do you really think carrying your Son is so easy?? Do I really need to go through that severe back pain at times? Leg pain after walking for only probably 2-3 hours? Sometimes even when I am experiencing backache or leg pain, I didn't want to say to you cos maybe you are tired also and feel sick and tired of always needing to help me massage. I don't Wan you to feel that way. I am afraid u will think that way. The Husband whom I married to, always give people such good impression cos at the back I gave him so much praise. And he may be surprised that actually I have also been telling people how fierce am I to him sometimes. telling people around me how awesome is my Husband but I am Always the naughty one, bullying him. But he is always so patience and kind and compromising towards me.
I think all these have just come to an end. Is no longer the same. 😢😢
