Saturday, April 12, 2014 ' 9:50 AM
Many times， 真的很多很多时候 we really take things for granted..only when things can no longer be the same or no longer able to come back le then we will wake up and realize that this is so painful and you just want things to go back to its original state, BUT 现实就告诉你没有办法了。不可能了。 That is Why I always said who doesn't know this "treasure people whom you loved before regrets set in".. though all of us know this very simple sentence. However, who really really will make an effort to treasure & cherish people whom they really love like there is no tomorrow?? 很多时候人都做不到这点。原因很简单。因为我们都爱自己比较多。我们都不愿意为别人而改变。only when you really lose it, then 你才可能会发现其实你比较爱她than爱自己。但是时间没有停下来等你的。every min, every seconds 就这样的过去了。 爱情就好像时间吗？ 一旦失去了，真的再也没办法挽回了。。感觉一旦麻木就变成了木头。 Yesterday Priscilla 说了一句话让我突然醒来： “你要知道的是反感多了也会越来越不爱了，感动和被爱多了也会慢慢越来越爱的。" If day by day 你对他做的东西，他的态度越来越反感，那么你对他的爱可以维持多久？" 但是，一个一天又一天做东西感动你，一天比一天更爱你，finally 一天也会慢慢的越来越越爱他。
Colourful rainbow <3
Thursday, April 10, 2014 ' 3:57 PM
可以告诉我这不是真的。。。这样的结局让我好难呼吸。。 我一直重复的问自己。。问了又再问。。还在问. Even if he is willing to change, will I be willing to take this big risk to wait? Will I be willing to give him & myself another chance? Or have come to a state whereby I am just tired of everything? Maybe it takes some time for me to adapt and go back to our normal self? Or maybe it never go back to our normal self? Or maybe I can't seem to find back that feeling....?? still still still in a very confused state... very very unsure of what I want now. 看到他，心还好痛。。为什么我们会走到这个地步。。 Sometimes can be just so tired in every aspects of life! - Career - Family - Relationship How is it possible that some people can just harden their heart and 说放就放。难道真的没有一丝的感情在吗? I really can't do it. 朋友都说我很重感情。难道这就是我的weakness吗？
Colourful rainbow <3
' 8:30 AM
过了这么久，昨天跟你谈话，眼泪就不小心的掉下来。。真没用，一直忍忍忍，但是就是不听话。 After telling him so much, 我希望你他的改变会对他将来好。I hope he knows I really meant well for him. 你一定要记住。 You ask for chance to let you change. Like I said this is a very big risk. You also told me b'cos of your "me,me,me" (self centered), u may not be able to change as u felt tat why must you change for others. *But I hope all along u did see me differently apart from any others". 你是一个值得人疼的孩子。you are really a nice man. But being nice only cannot bring you far. I have emphasized alot yst that w/o COMMUNICATION!! COMMUNICATION!! everything and everything and anything will fail.. not only marriage, but any kind of relationship/ friendship will fail too! I really really hope u see the big picture and truly understand the meaning behind it. 加油加油再加油。。。
Colourful rainbow <3
Wednesday, April 9, 2014 ' 1:30 AM
Our 2 years Anniversary is coming (26/04/14)... How are we gonna spend on this "special day". What is the feeling like for this year on the same day last year? Frankly speaking, I am more stressed this year, I am more emotionally unstable... I am pondering more. When I asked him what are we going to do on our Anni day, he replied since you are working the day before and the day after, what else can we do. ;( Why is it he has such a response.. Is there really nothing else we could do on the actual day since I am not working.. Like what my darling June said "Wo men cai zai yi qi for 2 years, and our relationship is already so dull"... But he can't really expect me to plan for everything even on this day? I have asked him out for dinner after work tomorrow. I really really hope that I will be able to say whatever I need to say to him. I really pray that he will have a bigger heart to accept it. I really wish that things will have an answer soon (be it good/ bad).. I know we have come to a stage whereby we no longer care so much for each other.. we no longer miss each other.. we no longer share much things with each other.. we no longer look at each other that often. I think the last time we really spoke and looked at each other in the eyes was during Chinese New Year. So many things can happen in such a short time frame.. "gan qing shuo bian jiu bian ma?" hai shi wo men ben lai jiu bu shi hen ai zhe dui fang? I am praying.... wishing... & hoping.... ;(
Colourful rainbow <3
' 12:42 AM
Oh Goodness.... I am gonna be 26 years old SOON ... feeling so old le...Time is running short.. Yet, many things undone. What do I plan to do for this year's birthday? - I wanna travel.. I wish to spend my birthday not in Singapore.. In a nice restaurant... with some white wine. Yummy food... super beautiful scenary.. - I wish to receive a bouquet of flowers on my birthday (though I have been saying flowers is a waste of money)... I think it has been some time since I last received flowers just b'cos I have been telling people that flowers are expensive and not practical ;(
Colourful rainbow <3
